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Both born in 1928,
Skip and I were the same age to the day. We lived across the street
from each other, and were lovers all through high school. We never
dated girls or went to school dances.
He was the "all-American
boy," handsome, short cut blond hair, and his daily activities
after school were hunting, fishing, or trapping. I was an introverted
book worm, and loved school work and reading novels. So our parents
highly approved of our friendship; he taught me outdoor life, and
I helped him with school assignments at night. After homework, we
played a game of chess and then had sex.
I tried, but he
never wanted to talk about what we did, it was our silent secret,
even the goodnight kiss. We took turns sleeping over together at each
other's house.
During our college
years, we were both too embarrassed to continue having sex. I wanted
to tell him how much I loved him, but that would have been breaking
"the rules." When we wrote to each other, he always addressed
me as "Dear best buddy." After college, he asked me to be
best man at his wedding.
He didn't want
a "bachelor party," he wanted only to walk around town,
just the two of us. He led the way, our slow silent visit to places
important to us, like soda shops and high school, or to all the places
we'd had sex together, secret places in the woods, or by a stream
where we use to strip and plunge into icy water, just an excuse to
warm up by hugging naked. This time, we shared memories in silence
as dusk turned to night.
Back at the house,
before going in, close face to face, he gripped my hands and whispered,
"I'm still a virgin..."
After the wedding
he moved to a distant city, and we never spoke or wrote to each other
again. On our fortieth birthday, my mother called to tell me that
Skip had just died. Acute alcoholism.
I can't forget
the magic of our youth years. It's forever...
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